I can't stop crying.

This is such a stupid thing to be upset over, but holy shit this hit me like a train. I (20m) just came to the realization that I will probably never be picked up during a hug ever again. I'm a big guy. I'm tall, I'm decently built. I'm hard to pick up, and even the people who can pick me up likely never would pick me up during a hug. I will never experience that ever again and I can't even remember the last time it happened and I can't stop being a fucking baby about it.