autistic partner cheated but insists he loves me

In what context can someone cheat and feel love for another?

Alright, the wound is fairly new so I will be brief. He cheated with some random girl 1000 miles away he met from Yuzu. They were having an internet relationship (?) He says he can’t figure out why because he doesn’t understand his emotions. They’re too intense and confusing (?) which checks out ig because he is very autistic but high functioning enough to get good grades and his parents abused him for his autistic tendencies, so he has NO emotional regulation whatsoever. But he has trained himself to appear calm while on the inside everything is chaos.

Recently, he’s been going through a lot. So he said he thinks part of the reason why he cheated was because he wanted to escape and distract himself with meaningless fantasies. I kind of understand because I’m neurospicy, so I often escape into my smut fantasy books (ACOTAR fans stand UP) But I also know that the guy equivalent of that is not cheating.

He has been insistent on his love for me, buying me gifts, crying, and constantly apologizing. Knowing him, I could tell he was genuinely remorseful and felt super guilty. He also schedule an appt with a therapist to figure out why exactly he cheated.

I want to move on and work through it but I can’t shake the insecurity off of him cheating again. And I keep feeling like I’m doing a major disrespect to myself, even if cheating isn’t always black and white, I feel like he really wronged me and I’m scared he’s secretly staying with me because I’m easy since I already love him so much. Thx for listening to my TedTalk 🫶🏻