Dress came in- I’m not excited. What’s wrong with me?

I don’t know why I didn’t feel excited at the appointment. I didn’t have my hair and makeup done so maybe that was part of it? It just felt like the dress was huge and papery and the veil was stupid long and crinkly (I normally like a lot of drama which is why I chose it). In the last two photos, I show you the sleeves I bought to wear during the ceremony (I thought it would help cover me up a teeny bit for the Muslim side of the family) but I feel like they just make the whole dress look like a shapeless pile and I don’t think I like the straight cut at the tops of the sleeves and the baggy style at the bottom, I’m really mad at myself though because I spent $800 on them and I don’t think I like them?? The veil was crazy expensive too and I just feel like I could have gotten something exactly like it from Etsy or from Egypt (which is where I’m currently living with my fiance and where we will be getting married- this dress combo I got in America). I guess I just feel mad at myself for spending so much money and I feel like it all looks a bit silly. Things are alright with my fiance so I don’t think I’m having cold feet in that area- just thinking maybe how silly expensive this wedding thing has gotten and maybe it’s not even my dream dress? I don’t even know what I like anymore to be honest, like I feel like my taste has changed even in the last few months since I purchased the dress??? Someone talk to me please!