Loss of faith and belief in religion after recovery from psychosis.

The title. I have a lot to say about this but I don’t really have the energy I don’t think.

Does anyone else relate to this? What helps you? I just feel so critical when I think about religion anymore these days. I have a lot of fear surrounding not believing and now having some kind of religious trauma and fears surrounding hell and eternal punishment. I also have a deep love for Jesus but that’s not here nor there. Right now I feel deeply paranoid though.

It’s hard to go from communicating with a higher power and feeling like everything is so real to the dull monotony of everyday life after recovery with the help of medication. (If only it took away all the symptoms) Life is boring and I have no idea how people remain faithful in any religious context without the help of psychosis. I am jealous and sad.