Being ever so slightly on a budget is bringing up trauma from being poor most of my life. (It runs deeper than I realized.)

All I did was put most of my checking account money into a CD that I can’t touch for six months. The money left for everyday use and to pay bills is a rotating 3-4k. This is not poverty. I have personal investments and a retirement account through my job. Yet I can feel it in my bones. I won't buy anything that's not strictly necessary and I'm irritable and panicky. In other words, having somewhat limited access to money (and this is almost laughable) is taking me right back to poverty trauma brain. I wanted to vent about how startling this is and how deep and long poverty cuts.