pinoy henyo tayo hulaan nyo sino ang dismissed siguro xd

araw araw nalang ako naiiyak. wala akong malapitan kasi i dont want to let them know na im a failure. i was on probation last sem and di ko pa naoopen crs ko until now, i just know na i probably got dismissed already kasi di ko nahabol from last acad year. nanginginig ako while im typing this kasi i feel like there's no hope for me anymore. kada gising ko araw araw, gusto kong ipaglaban status ko, pero feeling ko lagi wala na akong mukhang maihaharap kasi my mental health is so bad ever before i got in up.ababalot ako ng takot. di pa naman ako diagnosed and i dont have a medical certificate for it kaya who am I para iconsider nila. i had a chance and i blew it kasi ang hina hina ko, na how come it's so easy for my peers pero ako tila ba hirap na hirap. hindi ko alam, it feels like im numb but i feel everything at the same time na ang bigat.