Sentiments to argument

Every god damn time mag try ko or mag mention man lang nga I've been struggling lately it will always turn into argument basta si mama ako kastorya. Random lang nag open ko mag suicide ko di guro ka mka balo unsay hinungdan there I drop that and how my mom responded? Sus kung problema lang mas grabe kog kaagi and then she never stops giving me her hardships in life, All IM trying to say here kay when it comes nga mag storya or mag open up imong anak sa imo why not try asking aha ka gikan ana nga thought? Ngano nka isip ka ingana? Like real conversation that would make me feel nga it is safe to vent out to my own mother pud unta dili kay tagaan natag examples saiyang kalisod yes gets naa kay imo kaagi way way back before pero what lead me into this mess kay life decisions rasad skong mama and here IAM gusto ipa sabot ngano irritable ko perme and why am I acting like this lately so yes I endup not saying a thing at all kay even letting her know what I am trying to say kay e invalidate dretso ako nafeel murag ganig dili ka angay maka bati ug ingon ana kay mas sakit ako kaagi. Welp that's why diko magpabalo skong kasakit kay even mag try ko murag dili gusto maminaw kay about nalang saiyaha tanan. Idont hate my mom man pero atleast for once no mag try unta pud maminaw ato parents satuang cry for help.