I don't know what to do

Kuna uyu dem fulani naongea nayeye, it's been 82 days of talking. Ik it because of our tiktok/snapchat streak. Mi nataka tu tuonjane. But amesema tupendane, naona nkikataa tupendane ntakuwa nmewaste my 82+ days of investment, sa nkaamua tupendane but i don't love her at all because she's a single mum and more older than me.😭 eeeiy amekuwa free to me adi ananiambia her hoe stories jameni. They're so scarely. But these stories are not stopping me from getting the price🤣. Anaongelea adi mambo ya marriage na mimi ata sina kiti kwa my bedsitter in Juja, I'm barely 22😭😭. Ameniambia naweza enda kwake at Utawala leo, guys should I go and get it?