Feel a little let down

I regret joining this group. Although I am really happy for everyone and don’t get me wrong I’ve had a lot of improvement from when I started. I mean I had terrible ocd about dying I would think about it 24/7.. now I can proudly say I’m doing better. 20mg which is the highest they’ll offer me. But reading people’s stories was like a miracle took place and all their anxiety is gone and idk if it’s normal that I’m only maybe 40% down at most maybe 50. Is it normal to still have a great deal of anxiety left some days ? It’s been 4 months now on 20mg so well no more to remain hopeful on having that magic moment where it just clicks as I’ve seen here countless times. I guess if you haven’t had as great success as others too you’re not alone