Invalidating thoughts due to dresses and skirts

I am a trans man, ive come to accept that and have come out. Ive had lots of struggles with my mental health linked to my identity that feel like they really cement that my feelings are real and have an effect on me, i feel so extremely happy when people use he/him and my bf (the only one whos able to get it correct 100% of the time) is an extremely safe space for me, this all further helps me stop invalidating myself, but sometimes i see a pretty dress and i still think about wearing them and how cute they are (only sometimes though most times im absalutly disgusted by the thought)... i feel really gross about people seeing me in dresses and skirts but i think i still kinda liked them just a little. I dont really like being more feminine than i already am, i love being masculine but sometimes i feel like this and i dont like that i like this.

In the end this thought has lead to a lot more invalidating thoughts and feelings, like im faking it, like ill never be masculine or seen as a man by others, i really dont like this and i wish this thought would just stop.

I also dont really know why im even posting this, maybe there are others that feel this way idk, maybe someone can help feel less invalidated by this thought, or maybe how to stop feeling this way like i think femboys are awesome and all but i just nah...