I hate my mom

so, hi. I'm trans. my mom refuses to call me by my new name (even though I changed it at school and everyone i know calls me micah, and ive told her sevreal times to call me that imstead of [deadname]) it's getting to me, she has this weird attachment to my femininity.

she sometimes stutters on her words and calls me "child" and gender neutral pronouns, but those aren't mine. it feels like she's devalueing my transness and it makes me feel like utter shit. she also is very firm that she isn't going to let me get any gender affirming care until I'm out from under her roof. even binders and haircuts, i have to do and save for myself.

I don't know if I'm being unreasonable but it makes me so sick to my stomach, it makes me feel really gross and my dysphoria is at an all time high right now.

what should I do? can anyone relate?