i need some general advice

as the title says, i really need some general advice. i have absolutely no idea where to start transitioning (without T, im pretty sure my family isnt very accepting of trans people)

i look and sound feminine, i don't have a binder, and dont even know what haircut could make me look more masculine :( im too scared to go shorter than shoulder length.

as for the binders, i dont know how i could even get one to begin with and they're kinda expensive.

my voice is high and feminine, as well as my body and height :( i dont know how to do masc make up either so im just completely lost rn. which is the worst thing ever because i have been incredibly dysphoric lately.

if anyone has ANY sort of advice for someone as lost as me, please comment, i appreciate every tip! :) i just need something that could make me feel better and even the slightest bit of masculine