it’s a recurring nightmare

after years of depression i finally started feeling better, i found a girl that loves me and that i wholeheartedly love, i started getting way better grades;

of course it never ends, and yet again i have to find myself in this desperate call for help, im getting bad grades again, i cannot marry the girl i love, i lost all my social skills and nobody seems to want to deal with me, my so called friends are never there for me, absolutely lonely,

every time i try to fix my life it gets fucked up even more, i just want to get some rest

what sucks is im not a bad person, it’s rly not how i imagined my life would turn out to be

if u read this far i genuinely want to thank you