anyone else feel like they were robbed of a normal teenage experience

I am 18 now and my teenage years, which are meant to be the best of your life, have flew by. I spent the majority of my time distracting myself through video games and short form content, which if anything, made me lose even more time. I never really went out because the constant anxiety that someone was making fun of me i would much rather stay inside. I didnt even look that bad for someone with a cleft so i cant imagine how those who do feel. But sure, i went to some partys, had friends, maybe some minor intrests and hobbys but i was always the odd on out. I placed my own value as a human below others, i expected to be left out, sometimes i was, sometimes i wasnt.

Im not even writing this from a depressed standpoint, im genuinely just stating actual things that happened to me and how i felt. Anyone else feel like this?