What a day…

Left my house at 7:30 to go see some friends. Yesterday I did way too much cleaning and I’m feeling the PEM today horribly. I could barely sit in my chair without the pain being worse than normal and feeling like I was gonna vomit and pass out all at once. I also sound sick as expected because my throat is being rude now too.

I should have stayed home to rest since my appointment today wasn’t until 3:30. But if I stayed home I might be made to do more work that I can’t handle, so sitting on campus with my friends was a lot easier even if it was painful.

My appointment was with the “specialist” my doctor has been telling me he is going to send me to for my pain. A psychiatrist. Forced myself to go despite the PEM and feeling terrible because if I didn’t go they would charge me 200$ for not giving them 48 hours notice. I don’t got that kinda money.

The psychiatrist was like half an hour late seeing me. I don’t have it in me to go through every single thing that happened but I hated it. He basically made me feel like the pain is caused by mental issues like anxiety (since anxiety can cause muscle tenseness and pain). I’m so hurt. It was hard enough dealing with my crash and having basically no support ever for my condition, but now I have to deal with my doctor who was my only support system sending me to someone who makes me feel this way?

Today was a day…