My doctor lied

After trying basically everything, my family doctor told me that he wanted to send me to a specialist to help with my condition. I was happy about this because I thought I’d get to find a bit of help at least instead of a constant decline.

I waited several months and today I finally got a call from the office. The psychiatrist’s office. In the same building as the psychiatrist that I used to see that overmedicated me and almost caused me to get serotonin syndrome. I’ve been waiting all this time only for this.

I’m really upset about it. I don’t think seeing a psychiatrist is a bad thing, but this isn’t what I want or need. I know everyone wants me to go so I can learn coping skills to better cope with my pain which is swell and dandy for people who don’t have pain that isn’t helped by anything. I can’t just mentally push my way through it, even with coping skills. I’ve gone to enough counselling and therapy with enough different therapists/counsellors growing up to know that it won’t help no matter how much I put into it.