Not even catching the flu can stop me.

Caught this flu that’s going around and my throat is swollen and sore. I thought I’d be able to just be good, and let myself rest. Instead I had the bright idea to purge with lax. As a disclaimer, I know they do not aid in weight loss, which is not my goal, I just want everything out.

It’s obviously not been going great. Running to the bathroom with a fever has been horrible. Haven’t been able to just let myself relax. I know I’m doing it to myself but I can’t stand it. I get this urgency to “take care” of it. I thought being sick would be my one escape, but I guess nothing slips through the cracks with this mess.