i feel useless

(warning: this is a useless vent)

i chose a challenging major hoping to be academically challenged but i kind of forgot to factor in that i’m mentally ill and now i’m stuck in 19 units and not following any of my classes. i get bouts of anxiety in the morning and cant leave my room for hours on end. i’m barely doing my homework and none of it is easy. even if i understand the material every pset just requires hours and hours of consistent dedicated work and my mentally ill ass just can’t. i’m paralyzed all the time just entirely unable to function 3-4 days a week. i cant even drop any of my classes bc i’m already behind with my major requirements. i hate myself💀