Feyres switchup is crazy

Just finished acomaf and as much as i liked the plot i was SO confused at feyres sudden switchup toward not only tamlin but lucien? It seemed like after everything she did in acotar for tamlin and the friendship she built with lucien, starting page 1 in acomaf it seemed she was never happy and just hated them so much. The first 100 pages until she got taken to the night court was just her moping about how sad her life was

And then the moment she spends a few weeks in velaris shes suddenly thinking these things like “i only loved tamlin because he was the first to show me affection” or “if i was ever in life or death cassian/azriel would save me but lucien would never” like girl what? Its like they never did a single nice thing for her and now shes saying how she wants to claw his eyes out and he makes her gag like girl please…

The double standard is crazy with tamlin and rhysand too. The way rhysand was like “if you get taken from me i’d tear the world apart” and it was supposed to be this super romantic moment but wasnt that literally what tamlin did at the end? Giving up prythian in exchange for feyre? But it was portrayed as a bad thing? Or am i slow 😭