Crying over ACOSF

I have not shed a single tear once through the entire series up until ACOSF the hike over the mountains when Nesta reaches the lake… I cried with her, I became her, I am her and I’m shattered. I had to put my book down and take deep breathes at this part just now because I was afraid my husband would see my crying and I’d have to explain lol 😆 I thought I loved this series but didn’t truly understand what that meant until I truly got into Nesta’s story. I know she gets a lot of hate and dislike on many threads and Facebook groups but I’ve never not liked her. I’ve understood her pain from the get go. I’ve been the eldest sister, I’ve been the traumatized and violated girl that is full of fiery rage and a power within me that I don’t understand and can’t control, I have been Nesta a thousand times in my life and I have let the anger build until emotional eruption over and over and over again. I died inside when she wept at the lake. Forget Feyre and Rhys and everyone else in these books Nesta is my girl and I will die on that hill.