I feel like I can’t escape the negative

(SW: 215, CW: 160, GW: 130)

I’ve been on Zepbound for awhile and while weight loss was quick at the beginning, it’s slowed down lately. I don’t hate it though! I feel like I’m balancing out.

However, the body dysmorphia is rough. I still look in the mirror and feel like I look my SW. I’m wearing baggy clothes that are falling off my body because anything tight feels weird and I nitpick at every roll and bump I see even though logically they’re so much smaller than before. If I feel like I’m looking “smaller” that day, my brain automatically finds something else in the mirror to focus on and destroy. My hair is dull, a new pimple, face too sharp, it’s just constant negative. I definitely have positive thoughts about my weight loss and when I look in photos, I can tell more that I’ve lost but it’s something about the mirror. I have no idea what to do.

Does anyone else struggle with this? I’m genuinely considering therapy at this point. I’m refusing to buy new clothes, I feel like I’m hiding my body even more now, and idk what to do. It’s so strange because my overall health has improved DRAMATICALLY. Blood sugar is lower, energy is back, it’s a miracle drug but I don’t know what to do about these thoughts.