I hate myself and i have a shotgun

Please no dont do it responses, go f*ck yourself.

Im 28 years old, i feel much older though, been depressed, lonely, ugly and overweight my whole life.

I just have enough, my head burns from self hatred and sadness. There is nobody who ever liked me. My "friends" didnt go to my birthday party, because nobody cared to even have a few hours with me.

The girl i liked ghosted me, before that she just used me to look for her dog so she could fuck around.

My parents are selfish narcissists, my mother always hated me, my father never cared about me.

I just want it to end finally, i had 3 suicide attempts, but this one will be the final one. 12 gauge to the head. Tomorrow i will throw some acid, be happy and think about death, the day after i will shoot myself.

I hate being born, i hate myself, i hate humanity, i hate this world