Broke up

I broke up with him it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do and now I feel like shit because I feel like I gave up on someone who would never give up on me just because it was getting hard for me.

I broke up with him because I felt like I was sacrificing more in the relationship than I was receiving back. Also because even though I'm a strong bitch this has taken a toll on me and has been way more than I could've ever imagined. It's been almost a year and before him and I got back together I've been single 7 years so 7 years alone and then a year with him but in prison. I'm extremely lonely I want a partner that can be here with me physically and obviously he can't. The lack of human connection is killing me. I'm becoming depressed and just overall extremely sad and alone. I felt like I was doing the right thing for me by leaving but there's no one I want to be with other than him and I feel like I gave up on someone who would never give up on me just because I'm selfish. We don't know when he will get out we are hoping this year but if I already feel so shitty now IN the relationship how will I feel months from now. I told him it is best for us because I don't want to hate him when he gets out and resent him. I told him if I'm still single when hes out we can give it a shot again but I definitely won't be looking for someone for awhile.