Need some advice.
My LO recently went to jail & is looking at some time. We have been together since 2015 and we have a beautiful 4 year old daughter together. Our relationship was great, or so I thought. When the cops came and picked him up he left his phone with me and I decided to look through it. The stuff I seen was heartbreaking. He was cheating on me with multiple women and having sex in or home, in our bed. I feel so betrayed and disgusted by him. When he was finally able to call me I confronted him about it and he tried to say “at the end of the night who was I with? When I was doing my dirt that didn’t mean I didn’t love you. I’m sorry you didn’t deserve that please don’t leave me” blah blah blah. I’m finding it hard to let him go because for years all we had was each other and I don’t want him to feel abandoned.. I forgave him, but things have not been the same since. We argue more than anything now. It’s hard to forget the things he has done to me and the way he has made me feel. I am so insecure now and this feeling of betrayal is so hard to shake. Sometimes I don’t even want to talk to him and I just watch the phone ring and when I finally answer he is accusing me of cheating. I just don’t understand how someone could be such a hypocrite. Do you ladies have any advice for me? I just feel so stuck in love it’s miserable. 😭