I found out officially every single thing was a lie. Horrified beyond belief. How.

I had finally moved on and was actually helping others heals from similar relationships. Life is really good. I found out my narc ex (40m) was targeting a young woman (24f) at his work so I told my friend who works with him to notify her and she said. The girl admitted he was creepy. Well…here’s where the story derails.

For some reason, this inspired me to reach out to one of his exes. The one he talked about the most and had stalked, emulated, obsessed over to triangulate me. I was feeling bold. She gladly spoke with me and confirmed my deepest fear; that everything from his light-hearted “warm fuzzy” stories, to his personality traits, to his manipulation stories were all lies. I am now spiraling and in deep fear that this was more than narcissism and another level of psychopathy. When I mean everything, I mean he would tell me that him and all his exes were friends. He told me countless stories about them all yupping it up after their break ups bc he’s such a lovable great guy. He told me stories about his childhood, friends, and travels that were all false. This man psychologically broke this woman so bad over their relationship it took a decade of therapy to repair her. He tortured her. I followed up with some other people who know him and we all had different stories from him, with the common thread being that he lives in a delusional world where he believes he is the greatest man of all.

I feel like I escaped the grasp of Ted Bundy. I’m sick to my stomach. I don’t know why, but believing he was just a jerk who hadn’t known love and developed narcissistic traits felt better. I now feel like I’ve met Satan and lived to tell the tale.

I don’t even know why I’m writing this…what does one do after this…how can I ever trust someone again…