Scared

At first when i was a kid, I thought the Muslim women are good, but sadly i was wrong. I see Muslim women in hijab roaming freely in the park with their non Muslim boyfriend (i know they're non Muslim because they have some kind of red and orange thread in their wrist, so naturally they're not married). They EVEN KISS BEHIND BUSHES. i know it's haram to watch but it's the naturally if the bush is moving unnaturally is human curiosity to know why. And when people ask them what are they doing, is haram, the woman replies "it's my right given by the constitution that i can love anyone".

This made me sick in the stomach That night i thought suddenly crossed my mind "what if someone like that becomes my wife in future" "i can't even ask her about her past before marriage". And i was not able to sleep that night.

This is not the end... there are news and videos showing that women in hijab are going with their non Muslim boyfriends to A HOTEL ROOM,i mean WHY? it's definitely not homework!

Nowadays hijab is a covering to NOT BE SEEN BY RELATIVES, they wear hijab to go out and meet their boyfriend so that no one from their family recognizes them.

And them in the instagram comments are a whole different level of hypocrite. Recently i watched a reel where the rights of husband were written. The comments were "why do i have to obey him. He's not my owner,why can'the obey me","it's not the woman's job to cook and clean he should hire a maid.". And the funniest"prophet muhammad used to cook and clean". I saw a reel a few days ago in which a woman was asking a molvi "I'm married and have 3 kids, i work at a place and i fell in love with a man there, can you tell me a wazifa to get rid of my husband and not make him sad and marry the guy i want" there was a comment in this reel " look at the men in the comments now they know the pain of women when their husbands get a second wife".LIKE WHAT KIND OF COMPARISON IS THIS.

And don't get me started on the "mehr expectations".i know mehr is their right but it should be something reasonable, not 100k cash+gold +g wagon+ a sea facing flat .

I'M REALLY ANXIOUS ABOUT WHAT KIND OF WIFE I'LL GET, or even get one(i dint come from a rich family or look stunningly handsome)

And before the feminists aim their guns at me. MUSLIM MEN ARE NOT ANGELS EITHER. Men here don't know how to dress. Most of them wear clothes which hang down their ankles, and when you tell them to pull up their pants they say "it looks chhapri bro, I'm not gonna do that"

Men here go to masjid only on special occasions like eid and jumah (sometimes not even jumah).

They stare at girls like a maniac( some of my old friends too(obviously when i gained enogh knowledge to know the difference between haram and haram i left meeting up with them)). It makes me sick, they talk about 4 wives when they can't even wake up for fajr.

Some of them don't even know the correct way to pray witr. They go to milad-un-nabi,and olay loud music their saying they're celebrating the prophet's birthday.

And I'm not even exaggerating on any of this.

People need to kknow about their religion first.

NO NEED TO TELL ME THAT I'M JUDGING TOO MUCH. I KNOW I'LL GET HATED FOR TELLING THE TRUTH BUT I NEEDED TO TAKE OUT MY FRUSTRATION AND WANTED FOR SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO ME. I can't talk about my parents about this, they'll just say "no need to think about these, you study. "

So please, don't hate me for this.