i just want to be part of my life

i’m so tired of being sick. today makes day 8 of a migraine that nothing is helping, even tried a steroid burst that only worked for a day. i can’t cook, i can’t clean, i can’t spend time with my kids, i can’t turn the light on, i can’t do anything and i’m so sick of being sick. i emailed my doctor, again, asking if maybe it’s a relapse and is showing up as a migraine maybe. idk. i just want to participate in my life and i’m so sad that i’m bedridden at 31 years old. i know this sounds super woah is me and dramatic but this is the second time i’ve been stuck in status migraine this year. it feels never ending and like i have no reason to even be here when i can’t even participate anyways.