Convincing myself

Hello, I’m currently in university, studying something I hate. I’m studying business (finance, economics) and honestly, I don’t know what got into me when I decided to go into business.

I hate it, it’s not interesting, it’s just hard. So I have zero motivation to do anything.

I’m already in my third year because I was too chicken to drop out and move into a different major my first or second year.

I don’t know what else I would do because I’m mediocre at everything and I don’t have a particular area of expertise that I’m especially interested in either.

Also, the tuition is unbelievably expensive. My family isn’t rich or anything so I understand the financial pressure my parents feel. I feel sorry for what I put them through.

I feel like all of this expensive tuition and living expenses is going to waste because of how bad my gpa is. I just feel so guilty and frustrated with myself.

I’ve been struggling with university since day 1 so I’m not that mad about my gpa or anything but I would like some advice on not hating myself too much, convincing myself to enjoy something I decided for myself, and being motivating and staying that way.

Or any advice really.

Thank you in advance.