I want godly relationship but end up like …

I met a man, and he claimed he is a Christian(he did have rich Bible knowledge while talking with him and he have prayer life). He told me he wanted a godly relationship. I thought his mindset matched mine, which is the one of reasons I accepted his invitation and started our relationship. However, during the relationship, something seemed very off. He was very touchy and kissed me a lot. He loved French kisses, which I didn’t want from the beginning, I asked if it is appropriate to Christian doing that. I didn’t really go so physical since we haven’t committed. He told me that he did it because he liked me not because of lust. Later he said he wanted a future with me, I lower my guard after believing his words-it was also errors I had. When I wanted to pray with him and seek God together, he usually didn’t seem interested. We did do prayers but time was very short in the entire relationship, maybe less than 5 minutes totally.

Over time, he also touched me all over my body including grabbing my hips. We never have sex which both of us very firm on that. Very soon, he told me he never loved me and ended the relationship. Why did he do that to me if he never love me? he said he wanted romantic love and he felt nothing from me. I never knew he never love him til the last day he told me. If no love involved, why did he keep touching me like that? I thought his actions are expression of love but the reality is not. We don’t think the same. I felt completely confused, sad and in deep pain.

If you are Christians, what do you think based on this? Since then, I have been struggling with these memories with him. I didn’t expect to become physically intimate with a man who never loved me, I believed we didn’t communicate well on what we want. If I knew his thought earlier, surely I won’t lower my guard. His words were very confusing, not match to his mindset. He said want me in his future is not happening. After the relationship is ended, I feel very unfair why he gave me so many empty words and made me misunderstand what really in his mind.

I believe that I failed on I didn’t know how the words of God address my situations specifically - a lot of grey area caused me stumble. He thinks except sex, every physical contact is fine, not considered as ungodly. Sexual sins mean sin related to sex but his point is what he has done on him didn’t drag him have sex with me. I checked the dictionary on sexual immorality, adultery, sexual sin, and the result is all of those are sin if related to sex. But he said he didn’t have sexual thoughts on me, then his words proved what he has done on me is legit (to God)? Does lust only related to sex? My point is those deep physical contact shall only driven by love, if not by love, then driven by what? Does other motivations besides love are accepted by God? The Bible never mentioned it is ok or not driven by “like”. In the Bible, in the old time, dating is not the culture to couples. In this modern day, I believe there spiritual principles address to my situations and I don’t know which weapons for me clearly.