Does it get better?

I’m after my basically first real relationship breakup. (Me 18F and him 18M)

It was mutual at the beginning but after 3 weeks I wanted to get back together and he didn’t. I can’t imagine myself with anybody else and at this point (2 months since the breakup but only a week and a half since we cut contact) I’ve decided that even if he wanted to get back together and reached out (which I don’t think he will) I wouldn’t let it happen even tho a part of me really wants to.

That’s because we fought a lot and there was always smth wrong and even if we had a rly strong connection that wasn’t enough Im 90% sure im having a harder time than he is and I find myself really missing him

Does it get better?

My therapist said talking to me rn is like talking to a blind person since I don’t know anything other than that relationship but that she’s sure I will have better ones And while I see how she can be right I really cannot imagine myself liking someone else more.