I’m so tired but I know I’m not alone

We are back in our hometown for the holidays and, obviously, has severely affected my son’s schedule and other things. We decided to stay my grandmas as she has toys and beds for them. He went to bed on time and so did we after the drive.

Until 2:30AM. He was WIDE awake. I tried my best to keep him quiet but he’s a screecher and I knew he’d wake up my grandma and our older daughter. I took him to the living room to get some sensory things out to try and tire him out but apparently he woke up from a dream that told him to try and destroy everything.

At 3:30, I got in the car with him and just started driving around our town. He fell asleep but I had to keep driving, equally exhausted, to make sure he got at least some sleep. I’m sitting here getting breakfast after he woke up and I feel so tired and alone and yet…I know most of you are doing something similar. I know there are parents out there, the same as me, who have been dealing with this for months or years.

It comforts me in a way. I don’t know any of you off this anonymous app but it is nice to think, “hey I’m not the only deep in the sleep trenches.”