Do you ever feel misunderstood by people who don’t have adhd?

I’ve always felt like I can’t focus enough or keep a consistency, and I’ve struggled at university from bachelor to master degree. I never knew that I could have adhd, until my ex started suspecting highly that I have it, since she has it. Then I started taking therapy and I’ve been guided to seek a psychiatrist because it’s possible I could have adhd. My therapist has brought it up many times, without even me mentioning it or saying I suspect I have it. It’s hard abroad since my insurance doesn’t cover psychiatrist. I’m hoping the university can guide me. But I’ve never felt understood, rather judged for not being able to pay consistent attention or not focusing enough, or doing this or that badly. I feel like really bad about myself, there’s nothing I could feel proud of maybe… I overthink a lot, I miss on important details, my emotional regulation is really out of control, I can never focus properly and if I do I end up overeating or drinking a lot of tea because I lose patience

I remember during bachelor I used to pretend I needed to go to the bathroom to escape class so I could run and let all the energy out. I never understood why I felt so anxious in class like I wanted to run away, sitting down was difficult. I think it was worse during bachelor, now at master it is still messy, but less dramatic