I’m so insecure about being pale

I’m so insecure about my pale skin - I am 50% Middle Eastern and I feel like I’m meant to have tanner skin but I hate how my Eastern European 50% gave me my pale skin. I look nothing like those beautiful Middle Eastern girls with tan skin and nothing like the beautiful Slavic girls like pale skin. My eyes nose lips and thick hair just get interrupted by the ugly pale skin. I hate being mixed by two such different ethnicities. P.S. I don’t want to tan because I get grossed out by spray tans and I will not be getting into a tanning bed ever. Plus I’m trying to embrace my natural self even though it’s hard.

Edit: please read into my post!! I never said I was ugly!! I said I am insecure about being pale. People don’t read posts anymore…