how do i ask for help?

its been a while since i’ve used reddit, and I only started again recently bc of uni apps and stuff like that.

anyways, recently ive just been feeling immensely squished or something which is probably something you all have heard before but what’s important is that i know that i really do just need someone to talk to

i don’t want to talk to my parents or my friends because i don’t want them to know how much ive been going through and i really don’t want their sympathies

i know i should be leaning towards them as supports but I just can’t truthfully feel fully comfortable sharing how I actually feel with my friends or parents even though I consider them the best people in the world

i really don’t want to try help lines because i don’t want to be treated as suicidal, and i also don’t want to be pitied by my friends as well

my friends are good people but my ego and pride can’t take being looked down on which is something im ashamed to admit

ive really just run out of options when it comes to stuff like this and i don’t want the label of being “depressed” either even though I may or may not be i dont even know anymore

i just want someone to talk to or confide in because everything is getting to me and it’s getting harder and harder for me to hide it