Contact with Religious Entities and Mental Illness - Where do you draw the line?

Recently, the Saint I was confirmed under, Saint Michael the Archangel, popped back into my life to offer guidance or whatever. Not really sure of his purpose.

This is the third time this has happened. For the first two, I did the responsible thing and checked into a mental hospital. I ignored Michael and ignored him, until one day he was gone. I assumed the medication was working, and have been medically complaint since.

The last two times I also had disorganized thoughts and was cycling between confused/terrified and happy. Did a lot of rash actions because I was an atheist and wtf angels are real? Plus I thought Michael was the first sign of the apocalypse and covid lockdown had just started, so I was understandably excitable.

This time, he came back out of the blue and things are very... chill? I was chatting with a friend about how I was confirmed under him, and my friend (a Magician) mentioned I should try to call for him. I humored my friend and bip bop boop Michael is back.

No disorganized thoughts, no confusion. Can focus at work for the most part (I've always been a little unfocused, though) A little lazy, but wouldn't classify it as depression by any means.

So I guess I did summon Michael, in a way. He answers my questions by nodding my head, so I'm not hearing voices but do feel like something is controlling me, albeit slightly. Can only see him when I close my eyes and the location of his figure is highlighted on the back of my eyelids. Mostly red, gold, or white. He's generally tolerant and patient with a nice smack of anger. (Don't ask him about Israel.) I've asked him to touch my hand before and it tingled, like the feeling you have after a high five.

Anywho, I'm very nervous to get thrown onto a new antipsychotic or locked in a mental hospital. Work is going wild now and I'm moving into a senior technical role. Would prefer not to derail my career.

Michael says to Trust God but I guess I'm still a bit of an atheist. Guess I'm more willing to believe in Archangels that serve their own self interest (Michael wasn't pleased with that joke) anything besides the Abrahamic God.

The cool part of religious delusions is that they are protected by the government, so I guess I can just keep on going this way? I don't know. When should I start seeking help?