Day 1 (new here..)

I've spent the past 3 years drinking daily. It started as a coping mechanism after suffering a loss in the family and then a pretty rough patch that followed. I'm not gonna lie, that rough patch is probably at it's roughest point now in terms of stress and my mother hospitalized with terminal cancer. Bro, it really sucks at the moment.

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I never thought that my drinking was a problem and that I was okay because I would set myself rules. I would only drink after a certain time (whenever I got home from work / after the sun went down), I thought that I had everything under control but I realize that I've just been lying to myself. I would just drink until I fell asleep and then regretted it every morning.

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I've recently done a few very short stints alcohol free - the longest being 6 days about a year ago. My most recent was 3 days about a week ago. I just discovered this subreddit after Googling about withdrawals and I'm hoping that this place might give me that little extra push that I really need. I just don't want to drink anymore, it's ruining me.

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Anyway, here goes nothing...

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