Intimacy, where have you gone?

Hi folks,

Just here to vent.

Our sex life is basically dead. I'm struggling create/co-create contexts in which I can access pleasure. SO can get in the mood no problem, but it's impossible for me. Even when kiddo isn't with him (50/50 custody, we do not live together, I do not have/want my own kids), I feel like it takes me a whole week to recover from being around them.

I tried to initiate the other morning, well before we all had to get up and start our day. Kiddo (5) bangs on the door saying they shat themselves, because they wanted to wait until their dad was up. Great.

I don't feel connected to SO, and when I do, we are interrupted. This is turning into ALL brakes, and no accelerators.

Time to try again with communicating my needs. This is exhausting 😞.