Just took Step 1 and I feel like absolute horseshit

Well step went nothing like expected. Took the new Free 120 and got a 76%, two NBME'S and got low to mid 70s. Also took two comsaes (I know, not important for step), both of which were in the mid-500's. I also had been using Sketchy and UWorld and have been doing well on practice questions. Also got good grades in my classes.

Jump forward to today, and step did not feel at all like the practice questions and exams. I had a problem with the first computer they assigned me and had to move to another station. Some of the questions had typos and blurry images. The computer screen would also go dark at times.

For the actual content, that was a disaster too. There were so many questions that covered low-yield topics and others that asked about additional physical exam findings for atypical disease presentations. I can't say that I'm blameless though, but it felt like I marked at least a third of the questions. Hopefully most of the experimental questions were ones I flagged. It just bothers me that I was so much more unsure about my answers and less confident about my performance on the real deal than on my practice tests. This felt significantly harder than UWorld and and the nbme questions (Free120 included). At this point, I'm terrified about how this is going to affect my career, that my computer screen in three weeks will show the word "FAIL' in all caps. I've been really hoping to get into a competitive specialty with a good work-life balance, but failing would mean I won't match into one.