they make me TWEAK tf out

six ish more months til second semester ends and if I pass, it’s an entire new school so that’s good but I don’t think I can take six more months if my friendships stay in this state.

for more context, I’ve always been somewhat known due to my mum being a prominent teacher years ago and most of her students are also at my school— I’ve always had friends and since all semester you’re in one class not multiple (Iraqi system) you tend to be friends with everyone in your class.

the start of this year, I was still with my old friends. rocky relationship and friendship w them but we made it there, esp me and my trio. the girl I sit next to, my ‘bestfriend’ and the two girls infront of me. one of the two girls infront of me never liked me and it was obvious. she’s an asshole, openly insulting me at all times and just because her insults are creative, most of my friends would laugh. sometimes they’d defend me, most of the times they won’t. the only somewhat good friend is the other girl infront of me but we barely talk due to finals.

now, my supposed bestfriend has an issue. I can’t tell what day she’ll be mad at me and why. I can just go up to her for a hug and she’d push me and act upset and not even tell me. it’s the same w another girl (many ship me and her for some reason) and it’s extremely annoying— her name is Mono.

the girl who hates me and is infront of me, Sarah, began insulting me out of nowhere and being annoying w me and another friend (my actual bestfriend and probably only real friend) and being extremely obnoxious so I decided to leave as my bestfriend suggested we walk. my other supposed bestfriend instantly tried to stop me and be a “peacemaker” but I wasn’t in the mood and even when I was being nice, she got upset when I left and told me not to talk to her.

now, sure, I have other girls in my class who I’m fond of but they’re not a ‘walk around and hang out’ type of friends. we js know eachother.

so at the moment, I don’t hang out with a single friend my age— (my actual bestfriend is one year younger, not in the same class) and today was my last fucking straw.

Mono and my other supposed bestfriend kept walking around and trying to silently get my attention by staring at me a lot and sorta saying “look at us! we’re friends without you!” and Sarah and her bitchy ass group of friends in my class were talking about me so loudly I could hear them from across. I hate them. I hate them so much. I have to spend the next six months like this and I despise everything about them.