People say that I deserve better

Unfortunately how I view this is a reflection of how I view my self worth - zero. Despite being shown and informed of the many times I have been mistreated and used as a personal punching bag, I still feel the love towards my ex wife. Despite being informed I was married to a person who didn’t respect me and displayed narcissistic tendencies, I still feel that same attachment and love.

Love is blind, and I loved someone so much that I forgot how to love myself. In that process I lost myself.