Relapsed after roughly half a year clean

I swear I don’t do this for attention it’s just so ugh I cant put it into words

I feel so guilty why did I do this to myself? Why do I keep doing this to myself if I know I’ll feel like genuine, ultra pasteurized, gluten free fucking SHIT afterwards

I’m so done rn ain’t nobody give a damn tho all day I’m comforting and being sympathetic and supportive to people yet when I need help nobody’s there for me like ?? Why do I even put all this effort in for people who wouldn’t care if I died