Negative Symptoms

Like my girlfriend let me know yesterday that im kinda having very badly Negative Symptoms i thinked thats for sure just depression but now she said that i cant think about something else as what if she is true, how to get out of that hole where everything seems to much asked of me.

the way she told me was over Alogia wich is the lack of speach and now she mentioned it i cant make it unseen. i just want to be happy and live life with my girlfriend i dont know why everyone needs to do it so hard on me. like i have a lack of everything. to litle fun doing something, no interesst in doing something. i just wanna lie in bed and dont move maybe listen to music if it wont anoy me idk

help please how do i know if its a Depression or Negative symptoms im anoyed big time about this new found problem at the moment i would rate my state at an very badly depression personaly like an realy badly one like trying to kill myself on an regular basis like all 2 days