I'm doing something stupid

So I had no plans for nye, actually I thought of working a shift in a bar, that fell off, but I was so embarassed of staying at home with my parents and their friends so I told them I'm going out with my friend. Now I'll go on main square alone but that will be so weird. I never go out alone idk how to do this I just want to be lost in a crowd but at midnight its going to be so weird alone hugging no one. Entering 2025 as a loser is quite prophetic.

Edit: it was awsome, got drunk, told some group I lost my friend in a crowd and had a blast, happy 2025, we're sooo back