F*CK THE SCRIPT

To get straight to the point, I grew up in an abusive, poor and dysfunctional family. And my mom instilled a lot of limiting beliefs on to me and basically tore down my confidence.

And even as an adult, my life hasn’t gotten any better.

I’ve made bad decisions and coupled with life life-ING, I’ve just been going through it my ENTIRE life.

Last year and on my old reddit account, I posted a lot on positivity, manifestation and keeping your vibrations and was throughly convinced that I would attract a good life.

I came across “ Law of Assumption” which says if you assume something is going to happen, then the universe will grant your wish and it’ll happenZ So I felt, if I spent money however I wanted and dressed like a rich person that the universe would grant me what I wanted and give me the life that I aligned with vibrationally. Obviously, that did not work out because soon thereafter, I became homeless because I wasn’t saving.

Fast forward, a couple of months later I lost my confidence in myself and my dreams of being independent, financially living a high quality lifestyle and living a lifestyle guru.

But today, after posting two videos on Tiktok which had zero views. Something in me snapped.

I’ve come to realize that I I’m no different from these people that go viral. I’ve seen some really ridiculously dumb videos go viral ( I'm talking low quality camera, messy hair, dirty room and someone rambling about something unimportant)a go viral. But if I were to do the same thing or put a lot of effort on my videos, the most I would ever get is less than 200 views and a couple of likes.

So it feels like this dumb 3D matrix wants me to accept defeat and get used to settling. BUT IM NOT. I create my own reality. I run this shit. I’m not gonna give up. I deserve to be rich. I deserve to be an influencer who has likes and views. I deserve to do Pilates. I deserve to go on spa days. I deserve to go on vacations whenever I feel like it. I deserve to eat healthy and go to the gym and have clear skin and I’m not about to allow any force convince otherwise. fuck the matrix🖕 fuck the script 🖕 Fuck poverty🖕

Edit: this is how you know that spiritual warfare is real. I literally wrote the first time, posted it but it somehow did not show up. But here I am retyping it again. Because I'm resilient and gritty and nothing is standing in my way.