Why do narcissist parents give bad gifts on purpose every Christmas

I have a narcissist parent who I’m forced to see, since I’m saving to move out and I can only leave in a year. I swear she knows my taste in stuff, because whenever she tries, she actually gives good gifts!

Plus she sees me everyday, so it’s impossible to not know what I like. Today I’ve been given the usual shitty Christmas gift, slapped in my face just to say that she gave me an expensive gift. I did not ask for this, I don’t like it, I didn’t ask for any gift, and I will never wear this in my life.

This woman thought it was a good idea to spend 300 euros on a blue striped suit set, with blazer and pants, that’s not even in my size. There’s not even a way to return it because they don’t take returns. I never, ever in my life asked for this and I’m fucking tired of pretending I like shitty ass gifts.

I don’t wanna sound spoiled but that suit is so ugly and large that it’s insane, it literally looks as if I took my dad clothes and put them on me. For context, I’m a short woman, so y’all can get the picture.

None of that is in my style, I don’t wear suits, and if I did, I would not spend 300 euros on them. Then she complains she doesn’t have money to repair the bathroom that has been broken since 2010, remove the mold in our bathroom, and fix the front door that’s been chewed and scratched by the dogs, and kicked down by my dad.

But no, let’s spend 300 euros on a ugly ass suit no one asked for! I swear to fucking god. When I was 7 they gave me a bike for Christmas, when I asked for dolls and perfume. Why was I so mad about it? Because I’m dyspraxic for fucks sakes! And I didn’t even get anything else. To this day I’m 20 and I still don’t know how to ride a bike.

Edit: my dad bought me a “cheap” perfume with lotion and to be honest I am way more grateful than that. I don’t care that he left the tag on and it was cheap, but at least it was something I actually liked!