Day 1 for the thousandth time it seems.

I officially cannot handle the stress anymore. The sleepless nights chasing losses, the little dopamine hits that would surge when you felt like you were "up". Thinking about all of the times I could've just walked away, given the money to a family member and be done with it... makes me sick to my stomach.

I'm giving a friend of mine access to an account that I have and he will be withdrawing all of the bonuses/reloads I have coming and getting the money to me. I'm at the point where I just want to sell my PC/phone/tablet and get a flip phone to be able to make calls. I can't trust myself farther than I can throw an iron anvil.

Day 1.