I am miserable.

I’m roughly 7 weeks pregnant give or take a few days with my first (and right now only- because who willingly does this to themselves a second plus times?) and I’m just miserable. I wasn’t exactly a ray of sunshine before I got pregnant but now I feel like a soul sucking monster. I haven’t thrown up but I am nauseous from the second I wake up until the second I go to sleep, my boobs are rock solid and just begging to be put out of their misery and I genuinely didn’t think I was capable of feeling this much anger all of the time. I am so sick and so angry to the point where I’ve considered backing out of this pregnancy because I’m not sure I can take this.

Does that make me a horrible person? I feel like that makes me a terrible mother and I haven’t even gotten there yet. I just feel like this is never going to get better