Please give me some advise

I (M27) have just been recently experimenting sexually since last yr pa. I have had non- penetrative experiences (April of this yr being the second and latest) both in different persons and I like it really. Alam ko din nmn na chances of getting HIV through kissing and hndjbs (yep, pretty safe act pero that's the most i can do rn) are slim to none pero i do get myself tested (within the window period syempre) just in case and non-reactive nmn ako (just got tested this month).

Its been 5 months and andito na nmn ako sa point na gusto kong ma experience it again (with my first btw) pero di ko maiwasang maging anxious especially after doing the deed. Any recomms po on how to handle these post anxieties and insights whether i should do it pa ba considering that relatively 'safe' nmn yung sex wants ko.