It’s been 4 weeks and I miss my bf

4 weeks na since me and my bf last na nagkasama. LDR kami and we both have work and I study out of work pa on top of it. Mas maluwag ang sched niya sakin since after work wala na siya inaatupag kaya namemeet niya pa friends niya.

This weekend, magpupunta daw sila ng manila with 2 of his friends para mag binondo food crawl. He asked me kung gusto ko daw ba sumama, I said “kung okay lang sainyo” pero it was followed by something along the lines of “kaso ang iniisip ko si (insert name of his friend) alam mo naman yun mahiyain at awkward baka di mag enjoy at magtampo samin pag sinama kita”. It feels like he just negated his offer with that statement kaya parang naging formality na lng yung invite niya for the sake of masabi lang na nag invite siya. Sinabi ko na lang na di ako sasama at mag enjoy sila, then I asked if mag stay ba siya samin after kasi I was hoping to see him pero sabi niya uwian lang din daw sila. In my mind I was thinking na pwede naman siya magpaiwan at lumuwas na lang kinabukasan, di naman siguro mawawala yung dalawang kaibigan niya pauwi, matatanda naman na sila. Kaya I was really saddened and disappointed nung sinabi niya yun kasi I was hoping na siya muna mag eeffort for now since di pa kaya ng sched ko na lumuwas papunta sa kanila since nung di naman ako busy madalas ako pumunta sa kanila. Haysss ako na lang lagi nag aadjust sa friend niya na yun 🙄