I miss my friend

So about 2 years ago I (now 19M) met a girl Ashley (20F fake name) in a game text chat, I wont go into a lot of details so I can have some kind of anonymity but still be recognisable enough in the Hope that she sees this but in said game I needed help with some stuff so I asked random people for help and she was one of those people, she added me in game and we talked everyday since, sometimes I would even stay more time so I could talk to her, eventually I gave her my Instagram and we talked there. Our relationship evolved and we started sending nudes to eachother and having a lot of sex talk, we got along really well and I really loved our friendship, we shared a lot of the same interests, our conversations would be really long and interesting and I even asked her if one day she would like to meet irl (we are from diferent countries). But then some time passed and life got busy, I had a lot of school stuff, I made new friends Who would invite me to hangout a lot and I got a job, during those moments I would rarely use my Phone so I would spend hours without replying to her, then I met a girl Anna (fake name) and we started dating, and when this happened I told Ashley that I was dating someone and she called me an asshole and thats why I was ignoting her this whole time and I tried to explain myself but she didnt want to listen to me so I gave her some time to think. News years comes around and I get a message from Ashley saying "Happy New years" and bc it was news years I wasnt glued to my Phone, I was celabrating so I didnt see her message and only responded hours later saying "thank you". That is the last thing I got from her, after that I deleted our chat history because my girlfriend was a little insecure about my past relationships and even tho she knew everything about Ashley I didnt want her to stumble upon that, I still followed her and I thought she followed me too, some time later I tried to reach out to her to see if she would like to talk about our relationship now that she had time to think about things but I couldnt find her on ig, I couldnt find her in game and at that time I havent recovered my discord account, those were the only means of communication I had with her. She vanished, I looked everywhere I even went on friends accounts and searched her username and she had changed it, she blocked me everywhere and vanished, I Just accepted but she never left my mind. I vented to some friends and they told me that "she was some chick I met online" and "maybe it was a pedophile and lost interest in you", they couldnt understand that she really had value to me, she was as much friend as they were so I never talked to anyone about her again. A year passed, me and Anna broke up and Im miserable, during this time I desperatly tried to find her with the little information I have, I miss my friend and even tho I was a dick to her I really Just want a chance to talk to her again and explain all that happened and maybe we could be friends again, so if by some miracle you are reading this and you identify with I Just wrote, please message me, I do really miss you and Im sorry for ghosting you, and if you have a friend that have a similar story to this, show her, this is my last resort I really have nothing else I could do, I have some pictures from a caravan park near where she lives but there are thousands of ones similars to that, I only know her first name and I know shes from the UK and nothing else. If this doesnt work I will Just give up and live with the regret.